This is not a post about either 2010's resolutions or 2009's memories.
It is about a few changes that i have made to myself in past few years.
Yesterday is when i thought about the differences between being"ME"and pretending to be "ME". When i think of all those years i was in India and how i was well known for being a tomboy :)) wonderful memories...and comfortable too. I was more friends with guys than girls coz i hated discussions over a few bucks here and there after watching a movie, being possessive about friend A than friend B, gossiping about an X affair in the school blah blah. I would rather do something adventurous, more creative and productive. 21 years of my life, i never dealt with an eye-liner, i claimed i knew all about sex & reproduction but honestly...i didn't, i never dreamed of a perfect guy in my teenage, i loved to dress-up but in my own way...and what that means is look good & be comfy. Be noticed in a way that you don't need to hold your breath to pull in your tummy and look stunning. I remember the first 6 months in Birmingham. I never found a good enough beautician to thread my eyebrows and guess what i never took an effort to find one either. My sis saw me on the web-cam and she was more worried about the full grown jungle on my face:P thats when she threatened me to go and get it done.lol. I believe i had 1 body lotion, 1 deo, 1 perfume, 2 nail-paint shades and 3 lip-sticks....that was my entire stock of cosmetics..believe me....ROF!!!
Today it takes me an hour to get ready before i leave for a party with enormously kayotic cosmetic choices...a dozen liners, 2 dozen lip sticks, a wide range of matching accessories and what not...uhhh!!!
Today i socialize in girl-groups, i gossip, i chat about jewelery, dresses, make-up, shoes, hand bags and fashion....thats weird!!!
Today i wear a Capri just so that my pretty boots are noticeable in 30 degree F...how and why???
Today i care about looking good, looking perfect and try to fit within all other girlie girls. Unfortunately its not ME. Striving to look good with a punch line, "Anything for fashion"...its not me.
I have this confession to make. I have changed 180 degrees and by no means its doing any bad. Its just that i have to choose fashion over my comfort (reason: Mandar likes it)which makes me uncomfortable....would rather wear a blue jeans, GAP hoody and go to a new years party:P
For now, here is what i actually wore :)
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8 comments:
Happy New Year ;-)
Make up is fun, clothes are fun, being a woman is fun.
you'd attract a lot more people by wearing a jeans and a gap hood to a new year party... enjoy being a woman darling... i see a lot of myself in you... this is fun too...
each one of us goes through these thoughts of weighing singleton life with that post marriage...and although this is beautiful, you wish you could go back in time get to enjoy the singleton life often too...:)
only if we had a time-machine ...
good to read you are enjoying the change!
you write so well didi.....as i have seen you since childhood,i was actually able to feel the changes in you while reading your blog :)
Happy New Fear!!!
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