The smell of freedom :)

Sunday, March 10, 2019

The night is young and starry. Its also quiet and peaceful. It doesn't involve work, stress and people. Yes, it is filled with thoughts but it's mesmerizing. I want to exploit this night, take full advantage of her. Hence, my two new found pleasures, one is driving alone on the streets of Singapore with the windows down, listening to unplugged versions of old songs. The other is showing up at movie theaters on weekday nights and watching movies by myself after putting kiddo to bed. It's my time to go in a trance and just be.

This time with thoughts has gotten me closer to realizations and reality. I have seen a shift in myself in the last three years, not sure what exactly triggered it but i have allowed myself to face many such realities that i had either buried under the pillow or was completely unaware of. One step at a time, i have become more honest to myself. I have stopped denying my weaknesses, i have stopped pretending & making an effort to fit-in. Oh and i don't think about my bucket list , my 'old' bucket list anymore. 'My old bucket list'.... which was almost always somebody else's....because i never really put a thought into what i wanted.... i guess.... :)

Well, today when i sit here writing and staring into this beautiful darkness, i have a very indifferent mindset towards this big wide world. It's a massive feeling of liberation because how this world looks back at me is something i have stopped caring about. I feel light. The judgements don't affect me and i am not doing a damn thing to please anyone. The only rule i follow these days is, literally, 'Follow Your Heart' and this could be as simple as waking up at 12 in the night, grabbing a breezer from the fridge and going for a solo walk in random alleys. It could be as impulsive as cutting your lambe ghane baal (long thick hair) so short that you suddenly resemble army-men.

Is this how freedom smells like? This refreshing earthy smell, very similar to the surrounds me.

Yes, Meditation in Coimbatore @ Sadhguru's ashram and Himalayas trek are absolutely on the agenda. When? Hopefully soon!

And very coincidentally, i came across this quote just now :)

For now, you can enjoy my fav top 10 unplugged songs...