It’s been such an emotional roller coaster but things are
kind of settled now. 3 months ago we didn’t have this little toy in our house and
now it seems like I have been with him for the longest of time I can ever
remember. Yes, all parents talk identical language, love at first sight, your
world revolves around the baby, you will be getting familiar to the night
world, you won’t have time for anything else blah blah blah. The part about your
world revolving around the baby is very true but in a beautiful way. The part
about not getting enough time with the husband is not so true. You both are so
much into the baby and the family as a whole, you are simply learning to spend
time in a different way. And if you have a partner anything similar to mine,
rest assure that even if he is not fully awake at 4 am, he will atleast put a
hand on your lap while you are feeding and make his best effort to tell you
that “I am here if you need anything”. He will be super sleepy at 11 pm and
wishing you goodnight with an “I Love You” and a guilty “I have to sleep”
expression. After a tiring night you both wake up to the most innocent smile in
this world and the two button eyes looking at you which now seems to be a look
that recognizes you as a mother and your husband as a father…and the joys of it
are inexpressible.
This little fellow has turned my life upside down but I just
count hours before getting home from work. Now I realize why mommies tend to
leave there jobs, take a break in their careers and spend time with these
innocent tiny things. I keep mumbling rhymes and lullabies, pumping milk has
become 'me time', whenever somebody around the house reminds “we are out of milk”, the
first thing comes to mind is baby’s milk stock, meeting friends on a
very tight schedule, have to change FB
profile pic for last 2 months, credit card bills have not been paid, I keep telling
everyone I will call you back and it never happens, I have been trying super
hard to make time for a daily dose of cardio, an evening with coke in a wine
glass and some country music makes me feel genuinely relaxed!!! Ya, its
definitely a changed life but somehow it works :)
I look at my mickey mouse and everything turns into blisss. I have surely
started enjoying this new phase and am looking forward to much more that is coming.
And for Mandar, I just cannot explain how much I enjoy
watching him as a Dad. I see him full of love for his little guy and I can’t
stop loving that entire father-son dynamics. Muah….
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