A victim of CCD !

 You might be familiar with OCD but are you aware of CCD? I am a victim of this syndrome. Classic Classroom Disorder. Well, its self-invented, so don't google it. The probability theory and statistics kick in on Day 3 of the leadership training program and it takes me 30 odd years back in time. My math-tuition, the fierce prof and all theories by Abacus, everything that was just somehow very distant and daunting. Yes, of course i am an engineer and Yes, i hate math. Well, you can just assume that i am a genius :P but to preserve my sanity i had to sit on the last bench and write poems. Duhh, I.Had.To. Some things never change.

Today we are learning about this "complexity" concept and i am wondering if human brain is the most complex machine on this planet earth? The way it keeps emerging, evolving, making assumptions and creating ambiguity for itself, the brain can lead you in so many directions, wrong and right. Thankfully there has been so much emphasis on positivity lately, you have probably heard this a zillion times that expectations are the root cause of problems. For quite some time now, i have been training myself to be free of this word....needed some serious effort but seems to be working now :) Understanding this whole complexity deeply, the entanglement of brain,  mind and body, i have realized that 'interpretations' are the real demons. They lead you to make judgements.

We are so drowned in our own world, we ignore the fact that people may have bigger things to do, they may have other priorities, difficulties, preferences. "Our world" revolves around ourselves but "The world" doesn't revolve around us, and most often than not we forget it and draw conclusions. We label it as "I know this Person, i know why he/she is doing this" but the fact is that, you would never know "a person" completely and you don't need to.

I like to keep it low-key, not everyone needs to know everything because this little space is "my space" that i don't share with anyone else. Sooooo, i may have an understanding of someone's behavior buttt i will just leave it at that. I will not invest myself in interpreting because that little space belongs to that person. Who am i to invade it?

Just let people be :)

Ahh, Mid-Week already, can't wait for Friday!

A movie buff that i am :)

I get in this zone of movie marathons atleast a couple of times every year. Last 2 weeks, despite being crazily busy at work, i have been finding that "me" time and "me&mandar" time to catch up on a few movies.

Life was easy peasy when i was a student, single & a student,  it was easy & beautiful in the dating phase, it was busy but beautiful as a married couple. In the middle of all these transitions, the one thing that never changed was my Friday-Movie-Night every single week, it just became a Friday-Movie-Date-Night at some point. And soon a teeny tiny cotton ball entered our lives- 360 degree change! Fridays came, said hello and left without any special attention. This is when i got into the habit of doing movie marathons, and trust me its therapeutic, especially when work doesn't let you breathe!

In the recent movie hunt, i came across 3 beautiful movies on Netflix, what a pleasure it is watching independent films, character actors and unusual plots. Please catch "Kuch Bheege Alfaz", "Once Again" and "Beyond the clouds" if you already haven't. All 3 movies carve the delicacy of human relationships and unfold the beauty of there bonds in different forms - be it 2 complete strangers or a blood relation between a brother & a sister.  They push aside the rotten opinions about rich & poor, religion, perceived beauty & social norms. They highlight characters who have gone through a dark struggle in the past but have found such beautiful people along the way who have shown them a different perspective of life. In KBA, the male & female lead connect over a radio station. In OA, Shefali Chaya & Neeraj Kabi create magic over the phone. BTC is a heart wrenching story that shows so many colors of a human being who can't be identified as good or bad, who can't be quoted as right or wrong.

Long story short, i have been trying to pen this down since Monday morning and have managed to put a full stop only over the weekend. Started scribbling while sitting on this beautiful bench that i say hello to on my way to office. Ufff! sometimes i wonder how much i personify non-living things. Deep down, i am a true introvert :) Thoughts, Things and Me time, love it all!

Ciao!